SE05 The Next Right Thing[SE05] DAY 06 - Offer Your Work With Hope Part 2
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보배합2024-02-07 23:17
Word of the day: grieve
Vocation, calling or whatever term it is used for the vision people receive from God. It is something that I've craved ever since I can remember. Especially when I went to summer or winter retreat in my youth years, that was the main prayer I prayed: Lord, what is my vocation? What are You calling me to do? I blamed God for not answering my question; I blamed God for anxiety I had to suffer from not knowing my future. Only if God would talk to me what to do, what job to pursue, or which area to study, then I would not have to experience chaotic burden of not being out of control. That was my excuse for not taking a step ahead.
Because I had experienced that regretful season, I now know how tough it can be to take an actual step ahead. Emily said 'we grieve when we can’t seem to find our voice, our place or our offerings.' I agree with her. I grieved. I grieved because I felt like it was impossible to find my voice, my place, my offerings, or my vocation at the place where I lived.
I thought those years of uncertainty would go away if I'm in my thirties, but it turned out to be not true. Every once in a while, that grieving season still strucks me down, making me curl up and become defensive in the dark cave, blaming God for everything.
But my God is so kind and sincere that He has instilled a very tiny piece of desire into my soul through the years--A desire to live like an artist that is brave enough to move towards what makes me come alive. This desire lets me hope to be led by love. This desire lets me choose to take one tiny step at a time. This desire lets me become the living proof of God's sincere characteristics. So I choose to live like an artist and sit at the giving table to nurture my soul for the next right thing.
Vocation, calling or whatever term it is used for the vision people receive from God. It is something that I've craved ever since I can remember. Especially when I went to summer or winter retreat in my youth years, that was the main prayer I prayed: Lord, what is my vocation? What are You calling me to do? I blamed God for not answering my question; I blamed God for anxiety I had to suffer from not knowing my future. Only if God would talk to me what to do, what job to pursue, or which area to study, then I would not have to experience chaotic burden of not being out of control. That was my excuse for not taking a step ahead.
Because I had experienced that regretful season, I now know how tough it can be to take an actual step ahead. Emily said 'we grieve when we can’t seem to find our voice, our place or our offerings.' I agree with her. I grieved. I grieved because I felt like it was impossible to find my voice, my place, my offerings, or my vocation at the place where I lived.
I thought those years of uncertainty would go away if I'm in my thirties, but it turned out to be not true. Every once in a while, that grieving season still strucks me down, making me curl up and become defensive in the dark cave, blaming God for everything.
But my God is so kind and sincere that He has instilled a very tiny piece of desire into my soul through the years--A desire to live like an artist that is brave enough to move towards what makes me come alive. This desire lets me hope to be led by love. This desire lets me choose to take one tiny step at a time. This desire lets me become the living proof of God's sincere characteristics. So I choose to live like an artist and sit at the giving table to nurture my soul for the next right thing.
손단비(Andrea)2024-02-08 11:25
My today’s word is ‘Art’.
I often forget I am an artist. When I see myself, I am not a sensitive woman. But as I am writing in english, God awakes my desire and sensitivity hidden in my soul. It’s amazing experience for me.
And Emily says “ An artist is simply anyone who’s brave enough to move towards what makes her come alive.” When I think about the word ‘an artist’ , I imagined those who are very sensitive and look like genius so get inspired by everything. But the definition of that which Emily says is quiet different from mine. And her definition inspired me. Then I can acknowledge God who is the true artist calls me an artist.
The identity as an artist let me focus on my true desire and my soul turn towards the people around me who are suffering like me.
김지윤2024-02-08 12:57
My word for the day is revere
I revere my pastor Scott Brenner and his wife Sung Hee Brenner who is so dedicated to God and always leading us to the higher call to our life.
I think I have never gone this far if I didn't meet them. I thank God for sending me these precious people in my life. They are always leading us
to step a little bit futher outside comfort zone and walk in faith in the ultimate truth. They taught me to live in such a way to honor and revere God.
I have learned and grew so much through their teaching.
I revere my pastor Scott Brenner and his wife Sung Hee Brenner who is so dedicated to God and always leading us to the higher call to our life.
I think I have never gone this far if I didn't meet them. I thank God for sending me these precious people in my life. They are always leading us
to step a little bit futher outside comfort zone and walk in faith in the ultimate truth. They taught me to live in such a way to honor and revere God.
I have learned and grew so much through their teaching.
&Now2024-02-08 22:18
Amen. Thank you to the Lord for sending precious pastor and wife by Jiyoon’s side. Thank you for praying for me yesterday. Thank you for your warm heart. 💛
&Now2024-02-08 22:01
The words that come to me today are ‘artist’.
Each of us is the coolest 'greatest artwork' in the time God has created us. I thought how boring and lonely I would be without art. And I wouldn't have had the opportunity to think about this without the Lord. Books, movies, music, writings, warm conversations that soothe the depression and pain of my life, are all evidence of art, and I often think the results are more important. Even when I think of my children, they are works of art in themselves. The Lord has made me a shining artist. But as a creator and an artist, I have not tried to see your love in the image of God. I have been comforted in the wrong place and missed the essence. Now I realize that I want to find the image of the Lord and hear more voices. This means that we are not making art, but art itself and true artists.
May you stand healthy and joyful. With love and peace, with gratitude, Nnow💛🌿
Each of us is the coolest 'greatest artwork' in the time God has created us. I thought how boring and lonely I would be without art. And I wouldn't have had the opportunity to think about this without the Lord. Books, movies, music, writings, warm conversations that soothe the depression and pain of my life, are all evidence of art, and I often think the results are more important. Even when I think of my children, they are works of art in themselves. The Lord has made me a shining artist. But as a creator and an artist, I have not tried to see your love in the image of God. I have been comforted in the wrong place and missed the essence. Now I realize that I want to find the image of the Lord and hear more voices. This means that we are not making art, but art itself and true artists.
May you stand healthy and joyful. With love and peace, with gratitude, Nnow💛🌿
Brielle2024-02-12 16:46
Word for the day: Uncertainties
While listening to the part about the woman who wrote to the author about the wildest dream - becoming a writer, I recalled the dream I had when I was a young universitiy student. I was desiring, longing to become a busy working woman, implementings projects in developing countries, carrying out monitring and evaluation programs with different stakeholders and big organizations around the world. But that plan, when I dwell on it, is was an idol, a very fancy idol. At that time, I think I so truly belived that this was God given destiny and I can make it happen. Although there were times of uncertainties, I was able to experience amazing chances like interning in UN organzation, working in government bodies, participating in international conventions....but I think it worsened idolazation of my desire. I only let MY ideas and My art, work for me leaving no room to invite God to work His art!
Thesedays, I see God working with so much love in my family, through my daughters and my role as a mother. If I had been so focused with the work I dreamed for, I would never had this much time with my daughters - time of prayer and bible, time of cooking and messing up, time of silly jokes and be sunken into comic books, spending lazy afternoon in the bed...
I thank God so much for His calling and guidance in all these riddling walk in life. Without his grace and mercy and love, I would be finding excuses to blame on for my unrealized dream. It was not an unrealized dream, it was change in direction where I could discover God working in my life and empty my desire and fill it with his everlasting joy. It truly is a grace!
While listening to the part about the woman who wrote to the author about the wildest dream - becoming a writer, I recalled the dream I had when I was a young universitiy student. I was desiring, longing to become a busy working woman, implementings projects in developing countries, carrying out monitring and evaluation programs with different stakeholders and big organizations around the world. But that plan, when I dwell on it, is was an idol, a very fancy idol. At that time, I think I so truly belived that this was God given destiny and I can make it happen. Although there were times of uncertainties, I was able to experience amazing chances like interning in UN organzation, working in government bodies, participating in international conventions....but I think it worsened idolazation of my desire. I only let MY ideas and My art, work for me leaving no room to invite God to work His art!
Thesedays, I see God working with so much love in my family, through my daughters and my role as a mother. If I had been so focused with the work I dreamed for, I would never had this much time with my daughters - time of prayer and bible, time of cooking and messing up, time of silly jokes and be sunken into comic books, spending lazy afternoon in the bed...
I thank God so much for His calling and guidance in all these riddling walk in life. Without his grace and mercy and love, I would be finding excuses to blame on for my unrealized dream. It was not an unrealized dream, it was change in direction where I could discover God working in my life and empty my desire and fill it with his everlasting joy. It truly is a grace!
Dear you, welcome to the sixth day of Giving Table SE 5. As I told you yesterday, we are going to listen to the 5th episode once again. Please make yourself comfortable at the table, and let's enjoy the meal :)